going insane

finally back to reality check that school reopens in two more days. Sum part of me dont want to go back to school becoz i had found alot of interesting things to do durin the holidays but on the other hand, i wanna be able to be close to my friends again. Most of all, you.

It's weird how i actually agreed to go IKEA wid mom when i dont really want to go anywhere but just sticking my lazy ass on the bed and sleep all i want. Had a " nice time " wid kirra and cherelle. Best interenet buddies! ( we'll always have wipped cream wid chocolate, vannila and strawberry flavours " * blushed * LOL

Anyway, like i said i didnt feel like going anywhere because i was so freakkin tired from last nite but what the heck.. i realise i didnt really spend much time with my parents during the holidays. As a matter of a fact, we never spend time together for a very long long time. For instance, was supposed to go Port Dickson tomorrow but because i dont know why, we're NOT GOING ANYMORE. Dont wanna talk bout it anymore.

So..i bought quite some things for myself in IKEA. Got a silver-metallic notice board for my room. ( for later in future, if so happens fight wid mami and daddy, can guna lo ), bought a new plant for fresh air and some stuff but i cant remember anymore.

Anyway.. ima go help mom cook now!

How long has it been that I have been running from my fears?
Days? Weeks? Or years?

How I looked away from seeing your smile, and yet stroking your hair while you were asleep every once in a while.
I could not have told you by mouth with my heart filled with doubt.
What I felt was more than just love for love is but a word.
Every verse of your life became the words filling my heart like a book.
But losing you was like the torn pages you took, ripping my heart apart.
We have not dreams but memories, times we may sometimes forget.
But yet, they were all so perfect.

written by Joey Tham