bout dear.bout me.bout him.bout everything.

when i saw ur face, couldnt help but cry
thought i got over you but clearly i wasnt even close to it.
trying to control my feelings but can't help but looking back
looking towards u again hoping somehow u'll tell me one day
you love me as much as i did

feeling sick and sick and sick. trying to get over the fact that the POTO is over. NO WAY!! everything just happened so quickly and before we could even stop it, it was over already. luckily everyone's still tight together. heard about the china earthquake :S JUST HANG ON PEOPLE IN CHINA!

studying sej now and i really really cant get it in my head. totally gona need the extra tutoring with jules and stephie. practically now when im in class, i feel so dumb because most of the time i dont know what the teacher is talking about but feeling bad if i asked the teacher to explain all over again, it'll hold back everyone. not fair to the others. probably have to come back to school for extra classes during the holidays. ( just told mom about it but scolded me for telling her now while she's playing mahjong. wth? )

hmm dont know what else to update except i miss my dear so much now xD
probably god thinks that it's time to move on from him, so He sent u to me de dear. lolx cant imagine that just merely of 4 months knowing each other, we're becoming so tight together that i dont feel like separating from u lerh. whenever ur not around i just miss u soo much that it hurts. wanting to call you just to hear ur voice but afraid it's too much for u. learning all these stuffs slowly so ya have to be patient with me all the time. so sorry orh. ur always the one who's waiting for me to come on, waiting for me to come back from school.. always WAIITNG lol xP really wish to see dear soon. hope to see ya on my bday :P

we're not together though. needing time to forget him, got u suffering really makes me feel so guilty. u tell me ur not angry at the fact that i still love him but i know ur really really unhappy deep down. i hope one day this all will pay off. we're gona be together one day xD looking upon those days. being loved by you is the greatest present u can ever give to me. lolx